And after a month ...

From a time "when I was small and Christmas trees were tall" to "it's something unpredictable but in the end it's right; I hope you had the time of your life", I just realized that much of the things I knew I had forgotten. Either my hearing has become impaired or I didn't realize how much feelings I haven't felt.

I am writing this in this blog because I don't want to embarrass someone. She's quiet and insecure enough to even add this to her heavy load of psychological burdens. I will just call her "Lyn" but it is not her real name.

She was around my apartment last night and we were putting a video together. She was always quiet and I really had no idea why so when I had the chance to talk to her, I gave her the advice to take up courage in anything she does. Then I bombarded her with questions and realized that she has a severe personal problems that makes her withdraw from a lot of things, even making friends. I still haven't found out what is causing her recluse.

Today, she came around and she told me she felt sad reading my post on another blog. So I asked her why she felt sad. She said it was just a feeling. Then she cried and she was quiet until she left. I did hear her faintly say something that I won't repeat here. She was naturally embarrassed in saying it but I told her I heard her and to repeat what she said ... you know, COURAGE. But she didn't and the silence ensued.

I was writing something on a paper for her but she stood up and headed for the door. She just smiled and left. This was the strangest situation for meet lately, and I really don't know what to make of it. One thing for sure, I meant to guide her, and hopefully be the spark that lights up her courage.

Peace out!